I'm Insecure, I Know What For

So the title grabbed your attention, right? You probably clicked on this post thinking it’ll be some kind of WMYB parody. No *shakes head frantically*it’s not and I don’t think I’ll be doing anything of the sort anytime soon or ever in my lifetime.  Sorry folks, but I’m doing you a favour because my singing would just make your ears bleed!

What is this post really about then, Hinna? Hurry up and tell me, you’re like totally wasting my time now! 

Okay, wait, wait! Don’t exit out, that’s just rude!  Give me a chance! Jheeez! So, this post is all about how I deal with my insecurities and self-doubt. I thought I’d share some tips with you because you’re my internet friend and I care about you! 

People are always feeling insecure, it’s a common instinct built up during the years but we can always do something to get rid of this unwanted feeling.  I, myself have felt very insecure in the past for a very long time about almost everything in my life.

But I’ve learnt how to deal with most of my insecurities over the years by implementing these 3 tips:

NUMBER 1: Accept your flaws. After accepting your flaws no one can ever hurt you. Take me for example, I’ve accepted that I live with a lifelong skin-disorder and I absolutely love the skin I’m in, ever since I made the conscious decision to accept this, no one has ever bugged me or bullied me about it ever since and we’re talking about a girl that was constantly bullied about how ugly her skin looked.

NUMBER 2: Surround yourself with people giving you good feedback, good but also genuine! This may be difficult at first but once you’ve surrounded yourself with a solid group of people giving you positive feedback then your confidence will defiantly rise up and you’ll feel so much better about yourself. 

Number 3: Most importantly, believe in yourself, be honest with yourself and love yourself. This links to the first point which is accepting flaws, you can only accept your flaws, if you love yourself. So learn to love yourself make a note about all the good things about you, think deeply about this and write down everything good that comes to your mind. 

And there you have it, my tips on how to overcome your insecurities, please share any other tips you may have on the comments below and let’s help our internet friends out. 

"Self-worth comes from one thing-thinking that you are worthy." - Dr Wayne Dyer

***Also, totally unrelated but very IMPORTANT:*** 

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Stay blessed
Peace and Love

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Dear Diary, Want To Read A Random Little Story Fresh Off My Head?

*WARNING- NOT MY USUAL INSPIRATIONAL/MOTIVATIONAL POST*

Dear diary,

I’m going to tell you a little story, it may not be the best story ever written, mainly because with these diary entries I don’t intend to make them perfect. I just write anything and everything that comes to my mind. It’s liberating for me, calms me down, somewhat like talking to a friend to get something off my back or to give my brain some air, that’s why I love writing these little entries every now and then.  So yeah, the story…

Once upon a time  there was a girl. This girl was at work, she was new there and thought it would be a good idea to talk to a colleague and introduce herself, so she plucked up the courage and did exactly that. The colleague was a guy called Jimbob.  The girl and Jimbob started talking about things and shared intellectual ideas, they spoke about common interests and swapped knowledge, it was all good….to begin with.

Later on that day, after work, the girl went home and soon realised that she had a message from Jimbob on facebook saying that he had a good time sharing ideas and learning from one another and that he thought it would be a good idea to meet up and share more ideas together. So the girl replied and politely agreed that it was good to have the chance to share knowledge and ideas.
 As the days went and she saw Jimbob more regularly something began to happen, this girl realised that Jimbob would act very strangely around her and would say the most awkward things like “You look amazing” or “It makes my day talking to you” normally this wouldn’t surprise or bother any other girl, but this girl didn’t like it, she actually despised it very much and Jimbob knew very well that she didn’t like to be talked to in that manner, however he still kept on going deliberately to get on the girls nerve. Jimbob kept making these petty remarks, the girl even told Jimbob that she wasn’t interested in the slightest but Jimbob was a little stupid and kept going on…
When the girl couldn’t take it anymore she thought it would be a good idea to tell her fiancé about Jimbob, So her fiancé decided to go to work and see who this Jimbob was, Jimbob took one glance at her fiancé, shrieked and ran away, never to bother the young girl again. The end….

So yeah that just happened in my head :/, my imagination led me on and I just recorded everything down straight from my little brain to the word document I’m writing this on.  But now after this story I’m wondering if girls and guys can ever just be friends? Is it really possible? After this little story I’ve just told, I keep thinking maybe not If someone starts bugging you all the time and continuously throws around embarrassing indications, it can get a little uncomfortable and then you  would probably do the same thing as the girl did in the story and make it very obvious that you’re not in the  least bit interested, well only if you’re engaged, that is.  I wouldn’t be that harsh but maybe it’ll drive me to the point that I can do nothing but be harsh. Maybe it’ll make me do or say something harsh without intending to be harsh, but if you do something and you say you don’t intend it, doesn’t that contradict what you say and you actually do intend it because you do it?  Otherwise you wouldn’t really do it. Am I thinking too much? I don’t even know what I’m talking about anymore, this diary entry is too weird, even for me, maybe I should get some sleep.

But, I think my subconscious mind is telling me something but I'll try to figure it out another time, , also the following quote sums up this entry pretty well, not sure how but it does. Now I shall sleep. :)

“Turn your wounds into wisdom.” ― Oprah Winfrey

Peace and Love,

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Just Say Yes

As you know I’ve suffered from depression and  severe anxiety disorder a year ago (you can read through my older posts to find out why this happened) and it was one of the most horrible experience I’ve ever been through. Every day I would stay in my bedroom, hardly eat, hardly get any sleep and just sit or lay there being miserable. I didn’t speak to anyone, never went out and I felt like I couldn’t do anything at all. I let everyday go pass me without accomplishing anything. I cannot even describe how rubbish this felt. I don’t want to admit it but frankly, I lost my motive to live.

Ironically, doing nothing was completely draining and I was fed up with how I felt. One day during August of last year, I decided I've had enough. I decided that from that day forward I wasn’t going to sit there feeling sorry for myself and do nothing with my life. I started going out more and saying YES to any opportunity that came my way, the more I said yes the more opportunities came. I finally felt like I was progressing in life. I started a blog to motivate and inspire me, and now it motivates and inspires thousands of people. I started CBT with my psychiatrist to get rid of the depression and anxiety disorder once and for all. I went back to university. I started writing a book. I started laughing more and making others laugh with me. I started falling in love with my life again. That's not all as of today, I have so many exciting things planned for the near future that I cannot wait for. I intend to live my life with passion each and every day.

The point is, if I can overcome the darkest times of my life, then you can definitely do it too!

Watch the video that inspired this post by one of my favourite youtubers Zoe (Zoella). She tells a similar story to mine. Give it a little watch and I bet it’ll inspire you like it inspired me. 

"Everyone can reach their full potential, regardless of what other people might tell them. We are all loveable and worthy of living the lives we desire. Say “yes” to life by loving yourself first. Life will always respond with a resounding “yes” when you do." - Josephine Bila

Peace and Love

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PPS: Please facebook/tweet Zoe letting her know about this post, I'd love it if she gets to read it.

Thank you!

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I Will Not Let An Exam Result Decide My Fate- My Response.

This one is for all those that are slaving away, revising for the dreaded exams. For the people losing sleep over assignments and deadlines. For the ones fearing that their lives will go downhill if they do not attain the required grade, to get into university. This one is for YOU. Now, before I begin, let me make this clear. In no way whatsoever am I saying that I’m against education. No, never.  I am all for education, because after all...education is the key.
To me the meaning of education is this: to gain knowledge and act upon it. That is my definition of education and I totally agree with it, because you know how they say knowledge is power? Well, that’s true but only if you act upon the knowledge you are given, otherwise it’s useless and as powerful as a broken circuit. (Lol, silly analogy but you get me! :P )

So now that I’ve said that, you’ll begin to understand why I do not agree with the higher education institution. For one, the motive behind getting a degree more often than not is, not to gain knowledge, nope, but to gain a qualification. A piece of paper telling you that this is what you’re worth. You’ll let a paper decide your destiny? Seriously?

For me, a “traditional education system” is a factory. A factory that creates a society of sheep, and guess what? Do you know who the leader is? The shepherd which has complete CONTROL of these sheep? It’s the government, “the system”. I don’t curse so I won’t say any bad words, BUT, I’ll proudly say this, beeeeeeeeeeeep the system! :D

This system controls us, us meaning the poor naïve people working 9-5 every single day for almost all our lives. The shepherd which is the government sucks the life out of us like a leech! We do as they command and then they claim that we have freedom of choice! This isn’t choice, this is manipulation!

I won’t say anymore, but will let the amazingly talented spoken word artist, Suli Breaks speak his truth, our truth. THE truth.

Watch ALL three of his videos and let me know what you think. :)

Paying homage to my bro, Suli Breaks. 

If you’re reading this:

I genuinely appreciate your creativity, hard work and dedication to get the truth out. This topic is one of, if not, THE topic I am most passionate about and you’ve put it into words so perfectly.

I have sooo much respect for you and admire that you use your talent for the good stuff.  Thank you and stay blessed. Oh and also, I bought your "I will not let an exam result decide my fate" tee-shirt and I'll be wearing it during my exams! :) 

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To all my brothers and sisters struggling,please remember this:

“Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.” ― Albert Einstein

Also, tell yourself and believe this....
I will not let my exam results decide my fate because I have bigger dreams. 

Peace and Love always,

PS: I'd love it if you'd give that "like" button above some love if you liked this post. Also please do share it and spread the knowledge! 

PPS: Please facebook/tweet Suli Breaks letting him know about this blog-post, I want him to read how much I appreciate his work!

Thank you!!

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Dear Diary, Last Week Was One Of Those Weeks That Really Put Life Into Perspective.

Dear Diary,

Last week was a really tough week. Last week really made me think about how short this life is and how precious people are.   Last week my heart broke. 

My beautiful Nan passed away…. last week. (May Allah grant her paradise, ameen.) 

Its times like this when you realise how valuable each moment of every day is. Moments like this remind you that you cannot afford to waste your time on petty little things. Moments like this remind you that every person deserves to be loved and appreciated.  
Everybody with a heart deserves to be loved and appreciated, because, as Mother Teresa so truthfully said,"The most terrible poverty is loneliness, and the feeling of being unloved." So I am telling YOU, that you are an awesome human being, and I appreciate you very much, I want to say that before it’s too late, because life is too short…

For everybody reading this, please go and give your parents, siblings and all your close family a massive hug and let them know that you appreciate having them in your life.  You never know where life will take you tomorrow, so let them know today, before the time passes by and it’s too late. Too late to say that you’re  an amazing person and I have so much love and respect for you, to say thank you for everything, to say that I wish I had a chance to get to know you a little better, to say sorry if I’d ever hurt you. Too late to say that I truly appreciate and love you, my dearest nanojee.  

Sometimes, I wish I was a little more confident and that I could say all the things I wanted to without being shy. It’s time like this that makes me feel guilty for my shyness and social anxiety. Guilty because I feel like people, especially those close to me misjudge me. Sometimes, I may come across as a “snob” or “impolite” when in fact, I get shy and I don’t know what/how to say things, especially when there are a lot of people in the room. My face goes bright red and my heart starts racing fast. For most, this is pathetic, I know it is, but I can’t help it. Well, I can, in fact I’m doing something about it because I’ve had enough. I’m having CBT for my social anxiety, as a matter of fact I had my first proper session last week and it went really well.  :)

This life is too short, so love more, don’t hold any grudges, be happy, smile , pray for all the good stuff and live each moment of everyday because…. last week really put life into perspective. 

Peace and Love,

PS: Sorry for the lack of post last Tuesday, hope you forgive me!

PPS: I'd love it if you'd give that "like" button some love and like my fb page. 

Thank you beautiful people. You da best!( Lol, don't ask why I said it like that..hehe) xx

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